Good news for me, bad news for you.
I decided to opt into the six month version of this program after all. Which means sometime in late January, early February I'm coming home for good.
There are a lot of reasons for this decision. Some of them are personal. I got over my homesickness mostly and got all organized here in Chengdu. But I really don't feel like I have a place here, and it's a constant struggle to be successful. Which obviously wasn't working that well since I am not doing well in my classes. Honeslty, I never used to fail classes.
Some of the reasons are about school and other practical things. This program isn't really helping me graduate, and has gotten really expensive for me. I want to go back and really get started at the UW. I feel like I have a lot to do, and being here is frustrating me in a lot of ways.
I am dissapointed. It came time to make the decision and so it feels abrupt, but it's not really.
This means I won't get to do my research project, which was my primary motivation for coming here. I just can't wait around any more to do this project. It is now more important for me to just come home and get to work, then it is to stay here and finish my project.
So it's bad news for you, because there won't be a fun blog anymore. But, maybe we can convince Rhea to start one in March when she leaves for London. Or I can just blog about the silly exploits of my family.
My overwhelming feeling right now is gratitude. I am the luckiest girl. I got to come to China and have a mostly great time. Then when I needed to come home I have the chance to come home too. I mostly was able to afford this program, and can get out before it gets too hard to do that.
So, really, everything is okay.
I'm excited to see my mom. She took time off in May to come see me, but now Scott and I are going to have to think of some other fun thing to do with her.
I'll post once more when the photos are working, and post a lot of good photos I took here. Thank you all for your support.
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