I am not going to Japan. For a lot of reasons. Mostly, it's not my dream. It's hard to get a job there right now. I just don't have the drive to work hard and succeed at this. Tanner is working hard, but he can't carry me there, and do it all for me. He has enough drive to get himself there, so he is planning on going. It's his dream. That is good.
So yeah. It will suck being apart again.
I am not going to blog for him. So oh well, I don't really have anything to blog about.
Thursday, May 20, 2010
Thursday, May 6, 2010
Sushi at Home - Minus the Fish!
Great article by Mark Bittman, the Minimalist, a food writer for the New York Times. Also, Tanner has a book written by this chef/writer, I think Joyce and Julie got it for him.
http://www.nytimes.com/2010/05/05/dining/05mini.html?src=me&ref=homepage
Tanner and I should host a sushi party!
http://www.nytimes.com/2010/05/05/dining/05mini.html?src=me&ref=homepage
Tanner and I should host a sushi party!
Balancing act
I reviewed my last post, which kind of bothered me.
I don't want Tanner to be responsible for all the planning and creating. It would be hypocritical of me. I was feeling stressed out having to do "everything" and I don't want to just shove that burden off on Tanner. I know that I need to help him as well. I need to work on my own resume and other necessities if we are going to be successful in moving to Japan. We both need to be responsible for our own things.
Tanner was not putting the pressure on me to do research or get us motivated. I was putting that pressure on myself. I needed to take a break, and to step back and put things in perspective. Tanner was and is being very supportive of me. I just thought it was important to put that up here as well.
Now that I know I have options, and am not locked into going to Japan, I feel much better.
There are so many reasons living in Japan with Tanner would be fantastic. He is excited and that is wonderful to see in him. I love exploring, and just observing things. I would love to watch Japan. We would get to live together for the first time, which would be fun and challenging. I think teaching would be a rewarding, it would be tough as well. I think I can be a good teacher. I think living and teaching will be really tough, and as I succeed in Japan I would have a lot more faith in myself and my abilities.
Plus there is the food, and funny items, temples, shrines, beautiful landscapes, art and festivals, that make life fun anywhere.
So right now we are in this odd holding pattern. I will take my lead from Tanner. We will continue to get ready, and to support each other.
I don't want Tanner to be responsible for all the planning and creating. It would be hypocritical of me. I was feeling stressed out having to do "everything" and I don't want to just shove that burden off on Tanner. I know that I need to help him as well. I need to work on my own resume and other necessities if we are going to be successful in moving to Japan. We both need to be responsible for our own things.
Tanner was not putting the pressure on me to do research or get us motivated. I was putting that pressure on myself. I needed to take a break, and to step back and put things in perspective. Tanner was and is being very supportive of me. I just thought it was important to put that up here as well.
Now that I know I have options, and am not locked into going to Japan, I feel much better.
There are so many reasons living in Japan with Tanner would be fantastic. He is excited and that is wonderful to see in him. I love exploring, and just observing things. I would love to watch Japan. We would get to live together for the first time, which would be fun and challenging. I think teaching would be a rewarding, it would be tough as well. I think I can be a good teacher. I think living and teaching will be really tough, and as I succeed in Japan I would have a lot more faith in myself and my abilities.
Plus there is the food, and funny items, temples, shrines, beautiful landscapes, art and festivals, that make life fun anywhere.
So right now we are in this odd holding pattern. I will take my lead from Tanner. We will continue to get ready, and to support each other.
Tuesday, May 4, 2010
Only Tanner moving?
We had a serious conversation about whether or not I am going to move to Japan. I have been suffering from an amazing amount of stress at the thought of moving to Japan. Tanner hasn't been doing research or making resumes. I feel like it is all up to me. If I don't motivate us we won't be successful. This is especially frustrating because I don't even want to live in Japan. I only want to go because it is important to Tanner.
So for now we've decided that I can keep all my options open. That includes not going with Tanner to Japan.
We've also decided that Tanner needs to do all the planning and all the networking. I need a break.
If I don't go to Japan it will really change what happens to us the rest of this year and next. We didn't want to live apart again. It means that I need to start thinking about what kind of jobs I am looking for as well.
A lot of tough choices.
So for now we've decided that I can keep all my options open. That includes not going with Tanner to Japan.
We've also decided that Tanner needs to do all the planning and all the networking. I need a break.
If I don't go to Japan it will really change what happens to us the rest of this year and next. We didn't want to live apart again. It means that I need to start thinking about what kind of jobs I am looking for as well.
A lot of tough choices.
Friday, April 30, 2010
Finding a job in Japan does not look good.
Tanner and I are going to have to work on creating a back up plan.
I almost wish we had not told people we were planning this, because now if we can't make this happen everyone will know. I think that is going to make me feel pretty awful.
In other news, I lost a few pounds, so that is awesome.
Tanner and I are going to have to work on creating a back up plan.
I almost wish we had not told people we were planning this, because now if we can't make this happen everyone will know. I think that is going to make me feel pretty awful.
In other news, I lost a few pounds, so that is awesome.
Friday, April 23, 2010
Job Prospects in Japan
We read online a few days ago that a major English language school, GEOS, filed for bankruptcy. There are over 200 locations of this school across Japan. Many of them are being purchased by another language school, G.communication. While some locations are closing, classes have already been cancelled and teachers laid off.
Today I read that GEOS is trying to back out of bankruptcy. So right now it's unclear what will really happen with the company.
But what matters for me and Tanner is that this reflects larger issues is Japan. For about ten years the number of students who want to learn English has remained the same, and even gotten smaller. While there are as many language teachers as their ever have been. After NOVA closed, and now GEOS, there are a flood of English teachers who are all looking for jobs right now. These people also have their work visas already and experience in teaching English. If we tried to go get jobs this month, it would be tough.
Some of the people in our lives believe you can just move to Japan and find a job and all will be well. It is true that if you can afford to move there and try hard you can get hired. But there are a lot of part time jobs, and a lot of awful companies, and a lot of situations that would be miserable. A lot of companies and schools won't sponsor a work visa. A lot of companies require teaching experience. Some require international drivers licenses because they want you to shuttle yourself between schools. Some schools require you find your own students, so you spend your days on the street handing out fliers.
So, Tanner and I don't have experience or work visas. We are going to look for a job that will sponsor us before we arrive. But we are prepared to move and look for work once we arrive. We have done a lot of work and research, we will be prepared. I think we know what to look for so we don't end up in a job that we have to work for a year that will make us miserable. I just want everyone to know that it is not easy.
Today I read that GEOS is trying to back out of bankruptcy. So right now it's unclear what will really happen with the company.
But what matters for me and Tanner is that this reflects larger issues is Japan. For about ten years the number of students who want to learn English has remained the same, and even gotten smaller. While there are as many language teachers as their ever have been. After NOVA closed, and now GEOS, there are a flood of English teachers who are all looking for jobs right now. These people also have their work visas already and experience in teaching English. If we tried to go get jobs this month, it would be tough.
Some of the people in our lives believe you can just move to Japan and find a job and all will be well. It is true that if you can afford to move there and try hard you can get hired. But there are a lot of part time jobs, and a lot of awful companies, and a lot of situations that would be miserable. A lot of companies and schools won't sponsor a work visa. A lot of companies require teaching experience. Some require international drivers licenses because they want you to shuttle yourself between schools. Some schools require you find your own students, so you spend your days on the street handing out fliers.
So, Tanner and I don't have experience or work visas. We are going to look for a job that will sponsor us before we arrive. But we are prepared to move and look for work once we arrive. We have done a lot of work and research, we will be prepared. I think we know what to look for so we don't end up in a job that we have to work for a year that will make us miserable. I just want everyone to know that it is not easy.
Wednesday, April 21, 2010
progress
Tanner has gotten a new washington state drivers license. He also sent in his passport renewal. It expired November 2011. We were not sure where we would be then, and other nations are not supposed to allow you in if your passport is about to expire, so we are being proactive.
Satruday we have plans to get some things done.
We are also going to get started on planning my graduation party, which is the biggest event between now and when we leave. Yay!
The photo is from Fukuoka, in southern Japan, I am voting for a move to somewhere warm and tropical.
Thursday, April 15, 2010
Status Report: Mid-April
We have done a lot of research in preparing to go to Japan. That said, we are already behind on some of the preparations. We aren't too worried though. Many young people take a few thousand dollars and move to Japan, without a job offer or even any Japanese language skills. We are going to be very prepared, no matter what.
I am not entirely sure how Tanner would have approached the move to Japan, I think he would have prepared rather slowly, and then finally moved quickly and POOF he was there. I however, enjoy research, a lot. So I do a lot of research, and some planning, for any trip or move. So we have a lot of lists, a lot of ideas, and we have been talking a lot with people about the move. We do get a lot of questions, one of the most common is if we have jobs. Honestly it is very early to apply for any jobs. It takes about six weeks for a company to get a visa set up, so about six weeks from our travel date we will start applying for jobs.
In case this is interesting for anyone, and since it will remind Tanner and I what we are doing, here is a list of things we wanted to do in March and April:
Get international drivers licenses, which means Tanner has to renew his current license
Tanner also has to renew his passport
Get Tanner to a doctor for a check up and to renew a prescription
Get me to a doctor for my H1N1 vaccination
Set up all our prescriptions so they be filled online and shipped to Japan
Create new resumes
Take photos to put on our new resumes and to email to employers
Have my volunteer coordinator write a letter of recommendation for me
Begin to email people we know who have or are living in Japan, to get advice and perhaps in the long run job leads
Practice our Japanese language skills
Continue to research job postings online to get a feel for what we should be looking for
Continue to research Japanese cities, so we have a feel for where we are willing to settle
Read some good resources on how to teach English, so we won't be terrible teachers, and then decide which to take with us to Japan
Figure out how to pay my credit card bill while we are in Japan
I think that is most of what we want to accomplish this spring. When we get closer to the move we have another round of chores. It is very exciting. Honestly, I am mostly excited about graduating at this point. Japan still feels a long way off.
I am not entirely sure how Tanner would have approached the move to Japan, I think he would have prepared rather slowly, and then finally moved quickly and POOF he was there. I however, enjoy research, a lot. So I do a lot of research, and some planning, for any trip or move. So we have a lot of lists, a lot of ideas, and we have been talking a lot with people about the move. We do get a lot of questions, one of the most common is if we have jobs. Honestly it is very early to apply for any jobs. It takes about six weeks for a company to get a visa set up, so about six weeks from our travel date we will start applying for jobs.
In case this is interesting for anyone, and since it will remind Tanner and I what we are doing, here is a list of things we wanted to do in March and April:
Get international drivers licenses, which means Tanner has to renew his current license
Tanner also has to renew his passport
Get Tanner to a doctor for a check up and to renew a prescription
Get me to a doctor for my H1N1 vaccination
Set up all our prescriptions so they be filled online and shipped to Japan
Create new resumes
Take photos to put on our new resumes and to email to employers
Have my volunteer coordinator write a letter of recommendation for me
Begin to email people we know who have or are living in Japan, to get advice and perhaps in the long run job leads
Practice our Japanese language skills
Continue to research job postings online to get a feel for what we should be looking for
Continue to research Japanese cities, so we have a feel for where we are willing to settle
Read some good resources on how to teach English, so we won't be terrible teachers, and then decide which to take with us to Japan
Figure out how to pay my credit card bill while we are in Japan
I think that is most of what we want to accomplish this spring. When we get closer to the move we have another round of chores. It is very exciting. Honestly, I am mostly excited about graduating at this point. Japan still feels a long way off.
Sunday, April 4, 2010
Good but not good enough
So the biggest problem is just getting started. I will always start my new life tomorrow. Tomorrow I will start working out. Tomorrow I will start eating better. I need to start now!
Saturday I ate well, we pressure washed, so I am counting that as exercise.
Today I ate well, no pigging out on Easter. But I did not work out. Tomorrow I will have to work out twice. And work out every day twice a day, until I feel skinnier and healthier.
Keep trying! April is off to a good start. Lost a belt loop size, and at least a pound. I feel skinnier. So I'm on the right track.
Saturday I ate well, we pressure washed, so I am counting that as exercise.
Today I ate well, no pigging out on Easter. But I did not work out. Tomorrow I will have to work out twice. And work out every day twice a day, until I feel skinnier and healthier.
Keep trying! April is off to a good start. Lost a belt loop size, and at least a pound. I feel skinnier. So I'm on the right track.
Friday, April 2, 2010
Haven't been blogging
Dunno, just got away from me. I was questioning if I wanted to keep doing it. And I wasn't showing much progress.
I've lost a pound!
And my belt tightens one loop tighter.
I haven't been eating great, and I have only worked out occasionally. But it all seems to be helping.
March is gone, I started this some time in January, so I've lost about two and half months. Moving to Japan is getting closer and closer. I need to lose some weight. I need to fit into more of my old clothes, so I can take them to Japan.
I will blog more often.
I've lost a pound!
And my belt tightens one loop tighter.
I haven't been eating great, and I have only worked out occasionally. But it all seems to be helping.
March is gone, I started this some time in January, so I've lost about two and half months. Moving to Japan is getting closer and closer. I need to lose some weight. I need to fit into more of my old clothes, so I can take them to Japan.
I will blog more often.
Thursday, February 25, 2010
weigh in
weighed in, 233 lbs
so the same.
haven't taken measuerments, but they will be the same too
But I've been doing better.
Tanner and I are going contra dancing tonight, so that should be fun and maybe even excersize.
so the same.
haven't taken measuerments, but they will be the same too
But I've been doing better.
Tanner and I are going contra dancing tonight, so that should be fun and maybe even excersize.
Wednesday, February 24, 2010
good progress
Yesterday was a good food day. Today has been as well.
I need to weigh in and do my measurements twice a week. And go back to food journaling. But I need to find my journal first, so I will clean my room tonight and find it.
I am thinking about joining a weightloss group on Meetup.org. I belong to the site, but haven't gone to any events or groups yet. So that might be a good idea. Maybe I will talk to my mom first and if she wants to be in a weightloss group with me!
So later I will update my weight and measurements.
I need to weigh in and do my measurements twice a week. And go back to food journaling. But I need to find my journal first, so I will clean my room tonight and find it.
I am thinking about joining a weightloss group on Meetup.org. I belong to the site, but haven't gone to any events or groups yet. So that might be a good idea. Maybe I will talk to my mom first and if she wants to be in a weightloss group with me!
So later I will update my weight and measurements.
Tuesday, February 23, 2010
so far, okay
So far I've been better, but only okay.
Losing weight is really difficult, I need to more then do okay.
I've been eating okay.
I've been working out a little, and lifting a little.
So I need to do better. But it's at least back on track.
Losing weight is really difficult, I need to more then do okay.
I've been eating okay.
I've been working out a little, and lifting a little.
So I need to do better. But it's at least back on track.
Thursday, February 18, 2010
success!
I worked out two days in a row. Yesterday I jogged/walked with Tanner, today I cleaned house. I have also been eating really well. I am behind in school some, a chronic condition for me, I guess. I have been working on my attitude.
I've been reading Jan Morris, who inspires me some, and her writing is so fun.
Yay! From now until August I can lose 50 pounds if I try really hard. So that's my goal.
It's ambitious, but I can do it.
Yay!
Weightloss journey back on track.
I've been reading Jan Morris, who inspires me some, and her writing is so fun.
Yay! From now until August I can lose 50 pounds if I try really hard. So that's my goal.
It's ambitious, but I can do it.
Yay!
Weightloss journey back on track.
Thursday, February 11, 2010
today
ate well yesterday
and have eaten well today
now i just need to get back in the habit of working out, right away, but first
astro homework
and have eaten well today
now i just need to get back in the habit of working out, right away, but first
astro homework
Tuesday, February 9, 2010
good day!
I couldn't work out today, because I couldn't find my work out clothes. Lame excuse. But I did eat really well and had loads of energy. Tomorrow I will work out and it will be lovely.
Friday, February 5, 2010
Gearing up
I wasted the last half of January. No two ways about it. But there will be setbacks. I am still under 233 pounds. I haven't measured my waste or anything like that in a while.
I did see the doctor. I need to ice my foot if it hurts, and do some stretching. It was a horrible sprain and it's taking time to heal. But the health issue that brought me to the doctors was another story. I feel better now. But the antibiotic I took all week made me feel really gross. I have been stressed, partly because I have not been working out, and so I've been sleeping more to avoid the stress. Then I end up even farther behind in both working out and school, because I'm not working out. Ugh.
I need to do better!
I have also reduced my weight loss goals. Some people can really push and lose eight to ten pounds a week. I need to set a goal of six to eight pounds a month. That is still really ambitious. I I lose 7 pounds a month for 7 months I can lose almost 50 pounds before going to Japan. So that should be a more reasonable goal.
Hi Sophia!
I did see the doctor. I need to ice my foot if it hurts, and do some stretching. It was a horrible sprain and it's taking time to heal. But the health issue that brought me to the doctors was another story. I feel better now. But the antibiotic I took all week made me feel really gross. I have been stressed, partly because I have not been working out, and so I've been sleeping more to avoid the stress. Then I end up even farther behind in both working out and school, because I'm not working out. Ugh.
I need to do better!
I have also reduced my weight loss goals. Some people can really push and lose eight to ten pounds a week. I need to set a goal of six to eight pounds a month. That is still really ambitious. I I lose 7 pounds a month for 7 months I can lose almost 50 pounds before going to Japan. So that should be a more reasonable goal.
Hi Sophia!
Wednesday, February 3, 2010
yay!
On monday I weighed in at 232!
First time I am under 233 in half a year.
So despite not working out I have been doing something right. That is really exciting. I will try to work out today even though I am studying for my midterms.
First time I am under 233 in half a year.
So despite not working out I have been doing something right. That is really exciting. I will try to work out today even though I am studying for my midterms.
Friday, January 29, 2010
doctors office
Went to the doctor today to talk about my foot. He said I just suffered a really bad sprain. Gave me some advice for treating it. I got to tell him that I haven't gained any weight since August, and that I am trying harder to lose weight. So that was really nice. I really like my doctor, and I want to make him proud.
I have to really motivate myself with all the resources I can muster.
I have to really motivate myself with all the resources I can muster.
Wednesday, January 27, 2010
sad...
not much to report.
I weighed myself on Monday I guess, 233 pounds. Every time I have weighed myself since August 09 it has been 233 pounds. I guessed that I had gained a pound or two after the holidays, so I am pretty sure I took that off. My goal is to break 233 before the end of January.
Though I have been having some health stuff, and have used that as an excuse not to work out. But I am catching up on school work, and going to class again, so that is better.
I can back on track.
I weighed myself on Monday I guess, 233 pounds. Every time I have weighed myself since August 09 it has been 233 pounds. I guessed that I had gained a pound or two after the holidays, so I am pretty sure I took that off. My goal is to break 233 before the end of January.
Though I have been having some health stuff, and have used that as an excuse not to work out. But I am catching up on school work, and going to class again, so that is better.
I can back on track.
Thursday, January 21, 2010
food journal
I have been writing down everything I ate in my food journal. I've never done one before. It's really helpful.
failed!
Yesterday was a good food day. I probably went over my goal for calories in a day, but not badly. Though again I didn't work out. Today I made some back choices about attending class. I have easy classes, and so I've gotten behind in my homework. It's taking a toll on me. So far today has been a good food day though. I will try to work out, at least twenty minutes.
I had such a huge burst of energy, self esteem and attitude when I started this real effort to lose weight. I find myself drifting now, and putting things off, doing poorly in school. I need to get motivated and get those feelings back. Putting my health and my schoolwork first in my life can really make a difference. I can grow up, be more mature. It will also make me happier. So I'm going to work on my attitude today.
I had such a huge burst of energy, self esteem and attitude when I started this real effort to lose weight. I find myself drifting now, and putting things off, doing poorly in school. I need to get motivated and get those feelings back. Putting my health and my schoolwork first in my life can really make a difference. I can grow up, be more mature. It will also make me happier. So I'm going to work on my attitude today.
Wednesday, January 20, 2010
back pain
I am not sure how I hurt my back, I'm thinking hula hooping in Wii Fit Plus maybe, but it really hurts. I was worried it was my kidneys at first, I couldn't imagine just my plain old back muscles hurting that much. So that sucks. It hurt yesterday and this morning. Ibuprofen is helping a lot. But I used it as an excuse not to work out last night or this morning. So I need to find some motivation and really dig deep to fix this situation.
Perhaps, pain is just weakness leaving the body.
Perhaps, I just pulled some muscles and it really hurts.
But yesterday and today have been good food days. I wanted to eat at 8:44 at night, but I had cereal, and wasabi peas, so that was an alright choice. Still, need to stop those late night cravings.
Perhaps, pain is just weakness leaving the body.
Perhaps, I just pulled some muscles and it really hurts.
But yesterday and today have been good food days. I wanted to eat at 8:44 at night, but I had cereal, and wasabi peas, so that was an alright choice. Still, need to stop those late night cravings.
Tuesday, January 19, 2010
Tuesday!
So far, so good.
Got up at 5:30 to work out with mom a little. Feeling okay. Stressed out about school, which doesn't help. If I can catch up this week that will be a big help.
Got up at 5:30 to work out with mom a little. Feeling okay. Stressed out about school, which doesn't help. If I can catch up this week that will be a big help.
Monday, January 18, 2010
set backs
This weekend was rough. I did well on Friday, and alright on Saturday. Sunday was a day of fun with Julia and John, so I had a great lunch and didn't worry about food. But I also didn't work out. I binged back at Tanner's that night. I was emotional all weekend. Today was a binge again, and not working out.
But in the good news category. I walked from the car to Laura's apartment, and up two flights of stairs on Saturday night to a party. I noticed that I was less out of breath at the top. So working out is already paying off.
I will do better this week. On Tuesday I go to the UW gym for the first time in probably a year. I need to make that a habit.
Go to stay motivated.
This can really work for me this time. I can make a change in my life, for the better. It's exciting.
But in the good news category. I walked from the car to Laura's apartment, and up two flights of stairs on Saturday night to a party. I noticed that I was less out of breath at the top. So working out is already paying off.
I will do better this week. On Tuesday I go to the UW gym for the first time in probably a year. I need to make that a habit.
Go to stay motivated.
This can really work for me this time. I can make a change in my life, for the better. It's exciting.
Saturday, January 16, 2010
yesterday
Yesterday was not a great day. I ate around 1,900 calories. Whichi is okay. But I didn't work out at all. I also made some dubious choices regarding my school attendance.
But I can do better today.
The other day I walked past a mirror and looked at my belly. I smiled. I was really surprised, I think I smiled because I have such a good attitude this time, and I am working on losing weight. It's nice to try and like my body again.
But I can do better today.
The other day I walked past a mirror and looked at my belly. I smiled. I was really surprised, I think I smiled because I have such a good attitude this time, and I am working on losing weight. It's nice to try and like my body again.
Friday, January 15, 2010
day two
Well on day one, it was 10:00 at night, and so I went to bed after I blogged.
Yesterday was a great real first day. I ate around 1,400 calories. My mom and Tanner are worried that was too little. But I didn't starve myself, it just sort of fell out that way. So today I will try to have more snacks and keep up my calories. Yesterday Tanner and I did some work out videos that we found online, at the Discovery Health Website. So I worked out for 35 minutes hard, sweated! Then did some full sit ups and some wall pushups. I'm disappointed that I have so little upper body strength that I had to do wall pushups, not even "girl" pushups. But I can keep working on it.
Yay! Good start.
I've got another big hurdle though. I am supposed to go to the IMA, the intramural athletic center, the huge gym on campus. As a student I've already paid for it. But I got intimidated and didn't go there today. I need to get a locker first, and then I need to get used to working out there. I have time in the morning. I don't know why I'm letting myself get intimidated. Oh well. I just have to go on Monday no matter how I feel.
Yesterday was a great real first day. I ate around 1,400 calories. My mom and Tanner are worried that was too little. But I didn't starve myself, it just sort of fell out that way. So today I will try to have more snacks and keep up my calories. Yesterday Tanner and I did some work out videos that we found online, at the Discovery Health Website. So I worked out for 35 minutes hard, sweated! Then did some full sit ups and some wall pushups. I'm disappointed that I have so little upper body strength that I had to do wall pushups, not even "girl" pushups. But I can keep working on it.
Yay! Good start.
I've got another big hurdle though. I am supposed to go to the IMA, the intramural athletic center, the huge gym on campus. As a student I've already paid for it. But I got intimidated and didn't go there today. I need to get a locker first, and then I need to get used to working out there. I have time in the morning. I don't know why I'm letting myself get intimidated. Oh well. I just have to go on Monday no matter how I feel.
Wednesday, January 13, 2010
Day One
So this is where I am now. These photos were taken a few weeks ago, Tanner and his friends and I went on a brewery tour. I don't like the way I look in these photos, and I'm going to change that. I am 5'8" and weigh approximately 236 pounds. I'm not going to worry so much about my weight as much as my waist line, Dr. Oz points out that belly fat is what makes you unhealthy. So tonight at 10:00 p.m. my waist was 48 inches, that's a size 20 woman's jeans. I gained three pounds or so over the holidays, but other then that I haven't gained any weight since August. I get winded walking uphill across campus. I've never been strong, but since I broke my foot in September I feel like I have been less active and become weaker physically.
I am ready to stop doing this to myself. I gained the weight in China and the months following my return to Seattle. I was homesick and then became depressed about the fact that I was homesick and the choices I had made. But I haven't been able to lose the weight. I am not experiencing any health effects, but I know the longer I carry the weight the more likely this will become.
I am moving to Japan with Tanner in August or maybe September. I am a big girl to begin with and I feel that I just can't be fat in Japan. I won't fit anywhere! It would make me feel uncomfortable in many places. I will also be done with college and ready to try new things, and to work full time. I need to be fit and have more energy.
So I'm going to lose the weight. I know a lot about nutrition and how to lose weight. I am also following some great blogs written by people who have lost weight naturally. And also some blogs about women who lift weights. I can do this. And since I'm on the computer all day, I might as well use this as my journal. I will be able to look back and see how I'm doing and to show everyone my accomplishments.
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